*shy wave*
Ahem. I know I neglected my blog for a few months but what
can I say—THE HORRIBLE APOCALYPSE MONSTER THAT IS UNI TOOK OVER MY LIFE AND HAS
HAD ME GIVING BLOOD SACRIFICES EVERY HALF MOON.
So—uni. I had the best and worst experiences of my life in
four short months. I completely diverted from the usual life that is the
memoirs of asi. I don’t think it’s that obvious but I might have left my
blog and Graphic Design shenanigans to lie dusty in a forlorn dark corner and
ugly rats with red eyes running in the peripheral. I wish I didn’t though—I’m
sure writing up on this blog and ranting/raging would have helped to ground me.
I had 5 subjects for this semester, but later on I found out
that I could’ve done more. Sometimes I felt like it was too little. LOL I
almost forgot that I was doing a course that I wasn’t even supposed to do until
I got kicked out, haha. I’ll just do a quick list of the subjects I did and the
whole recap shebang.
This was one of my fave modules which is crazy because it
was the most challenging of all! Haha. I actually missed the first few classes
because I had to finish up with my Graphic Design Certificate. It’s mostly
calculations on binary digits which means my books were filled with a whole lot
of 1’s and 0’s and I kept saying them out in my head in a quirky Spanish
accent. I’m normal, right? Riiighht? LOL DID YOU ACTUALLY THINK YOUR OPINION
MATTERED I DON’T CARE IF YOU THINK I’M NOT NORMAL, WORLD! YOU SUCK ANYWAY.
Ahem. Moving on. I really did study a whole lot. And this
coming from a chronic last minute reader, was a surprise to the chronic last
minute reader herself. I downloaded so many ebooks and kept studying things
that didn’t even relate to the subject, haha. I got great marks on the course
work/project thing and um, average marks on the tests. I actually skipped one
major class because I was barfing up my guts and I didn’t catch up on it so in
one of the tests I couldn’t attempt that question. The lecturer (it was
actually a lady) was pretty awesome but I mean she was too fast and I mostly
learned by practising over and over again. I was pretty much a ready student
for this class—I had most of the basics in my head at all times.
Seeing as the above was my fave class, I’ll just add this
class here. Because someone hold me this was the most boring of ever. The first
lecture had me running out screaming hysterically about the mundane horror of
it all. It was mostly stuff I already knew from A-Level but as we kept
progressing it actually got more confusing but I did it, ma. Oh, and all my
lectures are 3 hours but this guy kept leaving with 30 freaking minutes. Man, I
paid tuition to sit through boring lectures and if I complained already anyway
so what it’s 2016 IT’S A FREE WORLD.
I really really liked this class which is ironic
because A) I’m doing a Bachelor in Computer Science (BscCs) And B) I originally wanted to do an accounting course (ACCA)
but life, you know? Anyway in the end I came to the conclusion that this is how
it should have been; with me doing CS and not doing you know—accounting. I was
pretty sharp in this class and got some of the highest marks. The lecturer
actually went around telling people I was the best student in the class and you
know—random people coming up like, help me calculate the gross profit and I’m
like, ‘Wuh?’ I’m not a good explainer or anything; I just pounded info into my
head for 3 weeks before the test so I aced the stuffing out of it. What’s more,
I actually showed up late for the test and I didn’t even complete it.
I’M BAD ASS AF AIGHT? DUN MESS. Although I had a major panic attack before the
final paper but I did it, ma.
This class had students from both Arts/Humanities and
Sciences, and so naturally people like me who were doing whole computer modules
kept smashing and whopping the tests and stuff. Yeah.
This class was a whole other level of whacky. We didn’t even
write anything much for notes. Just throwing around opinions and me in the
corner yelling, “DUN JUGDE.” I guess the whole point of the class was to up
your communication skills and we had like presentations and a mock interview
session. So this class was the last class of the week and it ended at 5pm when
I was all tired and ready to drop on my face. It had a whole load of added
stress for no reason and there was like groups and I was made a group leader
which was not fun. At all. Cue me doing ALL the work—ok, most of the work. I’m
not pathetic—ok maybe I was, but hey memories right?
I don’t even want this post to be that long but oh well—it’s
a wrap up of everything uni.
*screaming internally* THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR ABANDONING
BLOG AND NOT UPDATING REGULARLY.
Social-wise, this semester was a DISASTER. I’m talking code
red with sirens bleeping in the background. I’m not even gonna be afraid of
posting it on here because I want myself to remember and learn and never make
the same mistakes again. I went in with a firm self-confidence and
self-love/acceptance approximately half a year in the making and came out
tattered and clutching at my sides; feeling like I was falling apart and
exploding internally AT THE SAME TIME. I don’t know how to explain it—I felt
like I was falling into myself and falling away. I’M NOT MAKING A BIG DEAL
OKAY.
Literally everything that consists of my BEING was tested
and I don’t even know if I did that well. Ain’t saying nothing but I lost
control SEVERAL times. I’ll end this disorganized rant right here, because with
the help of awesome individuals who probably have no clue they helped, I’m
right old dandy right now. I don’t regret the way I acted; because even though
I acted immature and petty sometimes, I acted with the knowledge and
self-building/expression (doesn’t make sense, I know) that I had curated over a
year. Also, I’m scheduling a post on how everyone seems to hate it when people
show emotions that are extreme. WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM—A ROBOT? I’m tired of
people who think they can control a raging, stormy sea. I feel sorry for you
that you cannot manage the writhing roiling emotions and the spindrift across
your face.
*clears throat* In other news, I made a couple of awesome
friends that had me laughing my bowels out. On a side note it’s really
counter-productive and slightly pretentious that I smile a lot when talking and
yet that’s not how I feel at all. But these people made me laugh from the
deepest crevices of my dark heart. I don’t know why I’m not making a fuss of
this yet it really was a big fuss.
THIS POST MUST END OMG IT’S TOO FREAKING LONG.
I had so much fun eating out! My uni is gob smack in the
middle of an explosion of restaurants and please don’t tell my mom the amount
of pizzas I had. And the chips. And the—I’ll stop there, haha. Whenever I would
feel constricted, I would actually go on long walks to clear my head. My uni is
near some nice scenery and I’m a sucker for nature walks.
Long posts creep me out and this has definitely been a really long one. I've mostly summarized half my year and yet I'm planning to write up a yearly post? I think I can just do a quick run-through blog post on that. Also, new year's is a BIG DEAL for me, and I usually have this virtual report in my head of everything that happened the past year and the feel of how I want my next year to be. 2016 has been a hell of a year in terms of many things. Whew.
-Asi; over and out
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