*peeps shyly*

Yooo. It’s been awhile (accurately 1.5 months) since I so much as posted anything on this here my blog. Right on my 20^th birthday I wrote out a little something that I can’t seem to find. Currently. Surely. It’s not screaming to be let out of the dark box I stuffed it into. 

I’d like to say I’ve come a long way in this time between this post and my last post. School’s been getting in the way of a lot of stuff, though. I have exams coming up in a week and I’m planning NO SLEEP (sike, I couldn’t so much as keep my eyes open last night). The semester is ending and it seems like it was so short?? Like it was just yesterday I went for my first programming class.

One of my courses this semester was “Technical Skills Development” which was ALL ABOUT WEB CODING WHICH IS MY ACTUAL GOAL IN LIFE. I’ll add a snippet of the website I designed as an assignment. Some dude’s thing was so LAME and yes #Validation and these days I form actual opinions on things unlike before when I was a mute turnip with no opinions because I thought it was a crime to judge people. My mental state is so different these days. In fact, recently I saw a post on twitter saying one semester of uni can change you so much compared to actual 4 years in high school and I completely agree. 

I know my blog’s coding is in shambles and I remember wailing for someone, anyone to fix it for me but now I’M THE MAN YO. Imma fix my own shi. In other slightly less euphoric news, I really slacked in my statistics class and this is terrible because my grade needs help. ASAP. Also, like last semester’s Communication Skills class I had, this sem I had to take a Sociology class which was utterly inconvenient and unnecessary for my BCS degree and I cut most the classes and the lecturer thought I’d left the country and I didn’t bother correcting him. Also, can we talk about how HARD high school math is compared to the uni math I’m doing right now? High school math was TORTURE. And that’s not because my Pure Mathematics textbooks are fresh and pristine from lack of use lmao. Not really I guess. 

In culinary news, I got addicted to chips from a takeaway called “Bon Appetit” near uni and I’m currently having chip withdrawals and it is terrible and my stomach is judging me always.

Mental health-wise, I am of course, as always, an everchanging sea of emotions and feelings and hence I have raged and shone in equal measure. I am ok at the moment even though some people have said hurtful things to me which has caused me to adapt from my tortoise friends and retreat into my shell. It’s all good though; I mean I don’t have the time in my day to get upset over every tiny thing (I actually do, but shh). Some days back I had a euphoric buttery flowery sun-shiny lick of happiness which was amazing and I was appreciating my brown skin and my body and everything was fantastic for 7 minutes. 

I had a major Instagram hiatus; and by that I mean that I didn’t even go on it because I don’t have the time to waste on insta anymore. I’ve been really active on twitter, though. I did, however draw up some minimal line art for my insta some weeks back and it’s pretty cool. 

In the reading world, I’ve been slack; I read maybe 3 books this whole time since my last post. I am currently reading The Reader by Chee Traci and yes I am The Reader lol so accurate wauw. 

In the blogging and personal projects-wise, I have been MIA; done next to nothing related to graphic design except for that one time I designed a header for my website design for school. TSWP (The Secret Writing Project has also been locked up in a dark trunk and it’s currently making thumping sounds from within and I’m sat on the trunk and don’t worry *kicks once* and it’s gone all quiet.)

My theme for May is just studying basically because I’m after that degree and I am an ambitious and fierce, cutting wind and I shall fly far and wise to achieve all the things. 

I hope that you’ll be hearing more from the memoirs management which is me I am the manager lol.