So this Ramadan I
decided to read the English translation of the Quran. I’m kinda ashamed of the
number of times I’ve read the translation of the Holy Book of my religion from
cover to cover.. Maybe once or twice, but I usually just pick out a chapter and
read and reflect. In Ramadan, I usually read the Quran in Arabic, with
translations, but I don’t usually reflect; I’m usually on a mad dash to finish
reading the whole Quran; and I have to read two juz’s a day to cater for the
week I won’t be fasting.
I don’t know what
motivated me to read only the English version this time; my sisters read it the
last Ramadan, but I always felt like I needed to gain more rewards by reading
the Arabic, and that’s what I did. I’m glad I’m reading the English this time
round, though. I’ve been reading and reflecting the words of God, and I’ve
replaced back some of the eemaan I lost since last Ramadan.
Every time there’s a
verse mentioning forgiveness, I ask for forgiveness. Every time there’s a verse
mentioning guidance, mercy or Jannah, I’m begging Allah to grant me all that.
And whenever there’s a verse mentioning Hell Fire and punishment, I’m begging,
begging Him, Allah don’t throw me into the Fire.
It’s just got me
thinking, I should have picked up the Quran during the most trying of times I
faced. And I’ve learned my lesson; next time I’m facing a hardship, I’m going
to pick up the Quran. Even when I’m NOT suffering, I’ll be reading the Quran.
Allah just cares SO MUCH for me. He is SO Compassionate. Merciful, and All
Forgiving.
I really feel the
absence of Shaytaan now that he’s locked away for Ramadan. My prayers are so
peaceful; and I feel this emptiness where his toxic devious whispers would
be. That thought makes me feel soo
creeped out.
I’ve been sick for
pretty much the entire first week of Ramadan; but I’m grateful it wasn’t that
bad. Just a case of tonsillitis and sinitis with a bit of cough. I managed to
pull through until I got meds. I barely ever have medicine; for example if I
have a headache or cramps; I feel the pain—love the pain, lol. So I was really
astonished with the speed with which it worked.
For those of you
who’ve been following my blog, TSWP (The Secret Writing Project) is going on in
full swing. I was having so much trouble so much as sitting down to write
something. But now that school’s over, I’m just cruising through. Who knew all
I needed was a break from school to get motivated for my personal projects.
Speaking of school,
I’ve got exactly 3 months of holidays. Is that how long it is for everyone? I
have no idea. But I have plans of learning how to drive at this big age of mine
(20) and I hope my dad gets me a car so I can drive to college. It doesn’t
sound desperate but I assure you, I’m so desperate to drive myself to school.
I’m positive about the whole thing, though. And I’m almost never positive about
anything. But this time I’m passionate about getting a car. *whisper-yells* GOD
PLEASE.
That’s about it with
this update. Can you believe its June, though? Half a year gone by. I don’t
want to think about how fast the year’s gone. And I’m just seeing how much time
of mine school occupies. Next semester I’m going to plan my time well—making
sure I’m not expending too much energy on school. Last semester I didn’t plan
my classes well.. I ended up paying too much attention to some courses and next
to no attention to my statistics class.
